I’ve been going to A.A. on Mondays for few weeks now not because I’m afraid of drinking again but just to remind me why I quit drinking in the first place. It seems like ages ago at this point but I still remember how hard and desperately I had to hold on to my sobriety. It seemed like everyday was just another day to struggle through and endure for many years of my sobriety, but somehow I remained sober through the worst of it. It’s not until things got to be a little easier that I slipped and went back out.

So, now I need to remember because it would be so easy for me to pick up during one of these art and wine events I have in the gallery. But, I know it’s just an easy way out that I’ve relied on far too much in the past. Feeling uncomfortable is a part of life, and you need to accept it so you’re able grow. Today I can see myself giving 110% and NOT running out early before the job is done.

Barn Raising – Kingpin